5 thoughts on “Fighting Monsters.

  1. I agree. Unfortunately monsters have louder voices, bigger audiences, and do not worry about how they are perceived. So they win, for years. I will 44 in January. I have been fighting the polite way since I was 35/36 without seeing any progress. I’ve seen things get worse. I’ve been treated worse. Some have called me a “Monster” just by learning my diagnosis. I won’t become one but I will give them something to think about before they “label” anyone else again.

    1. Amen. I have to remind myself daily of this, because I spent about 2 solid years becoming the monster I fight. Even on here. I would abuse my abusers and fight those closest to me. It got me nowhere but 302’d and humiliated. They one that round. I’m just now seeing how I can better stand up and voice myself in such a way that is understood, received and heard. I reacted very strongly and out of years and years of pent up anger. Sometimes, I have to just sayet a few short words laced with truth that hits them like an arrow and move on. Even from family. Some had a choice in how they walked away from me and I realized that I have that choice, too.

      In the end, anger, rage and becoming that monster has gotten me nowhere fast. I can’t turn back time or take back what I said and it doesn’t mean it was fair to chastise me so harshly for that which they spew out daily. But I can choose to fight from a different angle or not at all. I’m learning that I just don’t have energy left for those who will never change. Yet, I’m the one ‘that will never change.’

      1. It’s difficult spending your entire life in the shadows. It always felt like an invisible hand was over my mouth. It’s one of the many reasons I liked/loved drinking.

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